you have never really lived until you have done something for someone who can never repay you
so this happened kanina, i never expected my day to turn out like this
me and my best friend were on the van otw home from sm bacoor when we noticed this lady talked on the phone, rinig na rinig namin ung sinasabi niya rinig rin namin ung pag hikbi niya dahil sa pag iyak
she looked like a fine lady, mejo malaki but she looked really nice
i couldn’t help but listen to the words she was speaking, may sakit ung anak niya nagkaron daw ng nana sa utak, napa shit ako sa loob loob ko nung narinig ko to, and she needed money for her son’s surgery. she was talking to another lady on the phone at nangungutang siya ng 1.5k.
"ate kahit hindi 1.5, kahit 1000 lang pangdagdag sa pangbayad sa ospital.."
shet, masakit pakinggan pero sigurado akong mas masakit ung pinagdadaanan ng babae.
pag walang nagbigay sa babaeng to ng tulong, walang puso ang mga to.. ang nasa utak ko habang papalapit na kami sa babaan
the guy next to her made the 1st move, inabutan siya ng pera at sinabing magdasal nalang. na touch ako kahit hindi sakin ginawa un kasi diba complete strangers tapos ganon
sumunod na ung ibang nasa paligid niya at nagsibabaan na rin sila
apat nalang kami sa loob ng van at gustong gusto ko na siyang abutan, alam kong 100php nalang natitira kong pera sa wallet pero hindi ako makakatulog pag di ko siya binigyan
nag para na ko sa van at ng tumigil nilapitan ko ung ale at inabot ang natitira kong pera
"ate pangdagdag lang po", sabi ko
"salamat", sabi niya sabay ngiti
bumaba ako sa van at naglakad pauwi ng masaya, hindi mabigat ang damdamin. aaminin ko first time kong tumulong ng ganon at kahit maliit lang ang halaga ng naibigay ko at least masasabi kong nakatulong rin ako :) im happy na nagawa ko un, nakaka proud din
i hope that child becomes well
at sana rin mas marami pang tao na magbibigay ng tulong sa mga taong hindi nila kakilala
totoo pala ung sinasabi ng mga tao na wag ma-aattach sa mga kaibigan mo sa kolehiyo. "bakit?" ang lagi kong tanong sa kanila. and now alam ko na kung bakit.
first of all, sa schedule. may conflict (lalo na pag 2nd sem or kunwari may bagsak ka or ung frendlalu mo). di kayo laging magkasama. di kayo makakapag bonding. ang hang-out nyo sa labas na or minsan sa mga party party na. or minsan hanggang text nalang. or minsan wala na rin yon
and the next reason (based on my own experience), maaaring umalis ang mga kaibigan mo. lumipat ng bansa *nag shift* o kaya nag transfer, etc.
1. lumipat ng bansa/ lilipat ng bansa
this. na-exp ko kay jam. my cutest little minion
friend bitch, literal. minion talaga siya pero mahal na mahal ko yun. she’s leaving on april. naka close ko siya sa mapua.. no jks, through twitter then sa mapua. ang weird ng friendship namin pero the best parin. from the same city. same school. different minds. different heights.
eto ang masakit sa pagiging overly attached sa kaibigan mo sa college, bc of this reason. masakit talaga kasi iwan ka at wala kang magagawa para mapigilan ito
2. nag transfer/ mag ta-transfer
based on my exp ulit, eto na ang dahilan kung bakit ginawa ko tong post na to. so my closest friend sa perps is leaving, well s/he might. pero kahit na diba. kasi siya ung pinaka ka-close ko ever sa school, ngayong 2nd sem tapos iiwan lang niya ko ng ganon. mas worst ang pang iiwan ng tropa kays sa syota. feeling ko magiging empty ako pag umalis si mark (name ng tropa ko na mag ttransfer). siya lang ung laging nandyan at di ako sanay na wala siya kahit na wala naman siya sa buhay ko dati pero kahit na kasi nadagdag na siya sa buhay ko at parte na siya at kailangan ko siyang bakla siya.
lagi nalang ako iniiwan ng mga kaibigan ko. di naman kami nag aaway e. umaalis lang talaga sila.
so ayan kaya wag kayo ma-aattach sa mga kaibigan nyo sa college. masakit yun okay
so these past few days has been a total fuck off. as in. literally. dalawa kasi yung issue, one about my org-mate being a mindless, selfish cunt and one about that boy that works in the library na nanligaw sa friend ko na sobrang asshole, sobrang hangin at walang respeto which turns out to be the friend of my 3 high school tropa.
i just want to say na wala na kong pakialam about sa org-mate ko na naunang issue. fuck that, fuck her. i lost every inch of respect for her. you know how gumaganda ang panlabas na itsura ng tao pag maganda ugali niya? she turned out the exact opposite. and just screw her. she’s a lazy, trying hard skank who only thinks about herself and thinks she’s so high kahit na sobrang baba na ng tingin naming lahat sa kanya. please just stop with the statuses and pagpaparinig we’re not stupid. and don’t tell other people na kami nang-aaway sa’yo kasi di ka naman namin inaano. wag ka ng magmalinis kasi di ka naman malinis. fucker
and sa next one, eto talaga naapektuhan ako. this boy, cristian whatever his last name is, has been disrespecting my friend for almost every single day and embarrassing her sa buong social media ever since napahiya siya. of course, wala siyang minemention na pangalan although everyone knows kung sino ung babaeng tinutukoy niya sa mga status niya. ang kapal kapal ng mukha mong gago ka. hindi porke’t nagtatrabaho ka sa library may karapatan ka ng mang-disrespect. kung napakasama ko lang na tao i can have you fired para maging full payment na ung binabayaran mong tuition sa school. don’t think so high of yourself. wala kang karapatang bastus bastusin ang kaibigan ko, wala kang karapatang mang lait. putang ina men tingnan mo nga muna mukha mo bago mo sabihing fini-flirt mo lang tropa ko?! dafuq is that shit. you’re a fucking attention whore! ako pa talaga tinatawag mo na supporter ng friend ko? ano tawag sa mga taong tina-tag mo sa status mo? display? i really fucking hate your guts, pero because meron pa kong natitirang respeto para sa sarili ko hahayaan nalang kita. i won’t give you the satisfaction of being noticed by everyone. ayoko ring umabot tayo sa point na magkademandahan bc shit i’ll smoke you, sa lahat ba naman ng pinag gagawa mo. excuse me pero you’re nothing but shit to my eyes. kulang pa ang pag cucurse ko sa’yo after what you did to my friend and to me. ngayon lang ako nakakita ng lalakeng parang puta kung magparinig at puta kung makipag away sa babae. talagang pinupush mo pakikipag away mo samin kahit alam mo namang you’re on the wrong path.
so i got earplugs and they are so frkn cool
this is an honest post
soooooooo everyone knows i hate my comm arts 2 class
why? well bc i hate everyone in there
my professor and the students im with
i also hate how horrible i feel whenever im with the class
so a/w, i very much hate it now
like beyond hate
bc there’s a kid in that class that looks like this guy i know/knew
his face, his lips, his eyebrows fucking remind me of that someone
and whenever i see him my insides just get so messed up
it’s 2014 and this is my first post here for this year
the picture above is my dream
like after 6 years i dream of getting that
that piercing (idk what size)
that long hair
and the confidence to show that side of me
so i’m pretty much sick atm, kinda got the flu and my head hurts like fuck it sucks bc i have 7:30am classes tomorrow and i’m gonna have to take a shower at like 5:00am.
so we went over to this pretty lady’s house on friday and they made me feel way better. i love how they’re always there for me. they’re the greatest friends i’ve ever had ♡♡
new me, old shirt from my old school that i will always love http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10200980410975589&set=a.1374063154720.2051706.1326043060&type=1&theater
you guys know how i moved from mapua to perpetual? well, i guess that’s the worst decision someone’s ever made for me my entire life. going back to perpetual is like being back in the hell i’ve already forgotten once i was in mapua. i guess those 5 days really spun my head around.. because last friday, dated 11/22/13, i broke down emotionally. it was a fine morning when i started the day, but sadly when i got to school it seemed like i really didn’t belong there. i was just pissed. at everything. at everyone. the whole place seemed to kill me. to think that my professors didn’t attend their classes either was the worst part. i was so angry. having to wait there, being stared at those “other” horrible students who looked at me with disgust. it was crucial and suffocating. on the way home, i rode on a cab. and in one glance i saw him. that guy i’ve always liked form mapua who lived here in my area. he was there talking to the man selling ink (it was an ink shop, so yeah). he was wearing an orange shirt, jeans and on his back was his jansport bag that i never forget. he was so pretty. so gorgeous. i went down the cab and my thoughts went circling. i missed mapua, terribly. i miss it. i miss getting to ride a van and seeing different faces every single day. i miss getting called by the pedi-cab drivers to ride their cabs even though it was truly expensive. i miss tapping my i.d and greeting the guard with my tired eyes. i miss my friends. i miss being with them every single day. i miss laughing with them and not having a care in the world. and even though some may be against this last statement, i really do miss the professors. i miss studying in mapua. studying in manila was my dream, i had it and now.. well, it’s basically gone. in a blink my whole life just crashed. i hate not having anyone to talk to, i hate how other students in my new school judge me, i hate how they look at me, i hate how i have to wear uniform, i hate everything about this school even though i graduated there in high school. i should be over that. i should finally be in a place where i truly belong. i don’t belong here. i hate it here. i’d rather kill myself than stay here.. but see, that’s the problem. i can’t. i can’t move back to mapua. my health isn’t as great as it was and my family’s pretty much suffering financially that’s why my uncle’s paying for my tuition fee now. this is why being poor sucks. i have no choice but to stay here where they put me and just accept the fact that nothing can change this reality
2:33 am na. ngayon ko nalang ulit naisipang magblog dito sa personal account ko. guess what, tapos na ang paglalakbay ko (not literally). tapos na ko as a mapuan. akala ko tatagal pa hahaha, sayang effort ko sa pag gagawa ng “life as a mapuan” segment dito sa blog ko. other people may say that i gave up too early, pero pano ko ippush through kung sobrang laking problema ang idinudulot nitong pag eenroll ko. actually nanghihinayang ako, sobrang nanghihinayang. tipong nagsisimula palang ako matuto, pero handa na ko sa mga susunod na kabanata tapos biglang icucut. lol. putangina. madami akong mamimiss sa mapua. syempre unang una dito ung naging barkada ko ‘puksi dabarkads’. the best. next is syempre ung crush ko HAHAHAHA. pati na rin yung naging block ko, a80. at higit sa lahat, is yung pagpunta ko sa manila. yes. i’ve always loved manila. di man siya gaanong kaganda na ngayon, i still love it. ewan ko ba, everything about manila fascinates me. mejo nakakabitin kasi di ko pa siya lubusang naeexplore ng mag-isa, sana sa future magawa ko. so that’s all, my journey in mapua pretty much ends here. de joke, it ends the day i enroll sa next school ko. syempre di ko muna isstate kung saan ako papasok next. basta magiging tourism student ako. :) lol